Jacks, your english is actually pretty darn good for someone who speaks it as a second language or not at all. Im not sure if you have ever taken any courses to learn english, but either way it is still very good.
Living in America I see people everyday who have been here for 10+ years and still cannot form even a sentence. It is quite sad actually. So its actually comforting to see someone who is not even here in the US that is trying to learn english and how to use it properly.
From what I have seen and read from you on here I have no doubt in my mind that you will one day be very proficient in the english language and that you will realize your hopes and dreams.
Have a great afternoon Jacks.........